Teeth Clench

Teeth clench,

smile,

vomit,

smile.

I ate spiders

and sucked out

the blood of the

hounds birthed

in that grit hell

Im still chained to,

twitching between

empathy and apathy.

Look,

I know

nothing is forever

but our stardust,

and I do

see the light

even from the

water well

in which I cling to.

I am aware the exquisite exists

and I delight

in the day

when I can

but I twisted more towards

the macabre

and completely

fucking insane-

I fell too far

down the rabbit hole

and no one dared follow.

The sorrow

has changed me

into something

I do not know,

the mirror

warps my image

into a moaning ghost

that fades in and out

with the music

that beats loud below.